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Languishing Long
In the spirit of finishing things, last night I pulled out this vest, started and knitted (mostly) in a week this past October. I picked up and knit the 84 sts for the other armband. Yes, a measly inch is all I had left to do on it. One inch.
Well, maybe an inch and a half.
In any case, it amounted to about 40 minutes worth of work by the time I sewed the ends in. So, naturally, I wore it to work today.
I’m not sure the yellow shirt is the way to go with this, but it looked cute with the denim pleated skirt I first tried on before I realized that I don’t have any black tights here. Or any tights at all. Unless you count the crazily printed fake tattoo footless tights that I somehow remembered to pack. Necessity? I think not.
Let me talk for a bit about moving. Humour me. Moving is fun and exciting and it enables you to meet all kinds of great new people. And to walk around great new neighborhoods. And eat great new food. Personally, I’m trying out every burrito stand I can find, simply because they don’t exist in Calgary and I still miss the burrito from my californian life.
But. And this is a big BUT.
Prepare yourself.
Or maybe you know what I’m about to say?
Here goes.
Moving also sucks.
It’s not fun ALL the time. It’s terribly, horribly, impossibly and irrationally lonely at times. And I’m lucky enough to be surrounded by cool people that I quite like at work, at home, when I go to the shops. I have one of my bestest friends living on just the other side of the city. How great is that?
But I don’t have Sandra, I don’t have my dogs. I don’t even have my cats, although I’m pondering bringing one (or two) back with me this weekend. And yes, I’m going back to Calgary for the weekend in 48 hours.
But I’ll say this here, because this is my space and I can. I’m scared and a little lonely tonight. As great as everything here is going for me, it’s hard doing it without my wife. It’s hard trying to answer that question that everyone has about when she’ll be moving here. We don’t know. And that sucks too.
So humour me. Allow me to have a down night. It’s not permanent. I’ll feel a lot better in the morning.
And hey, I have a new vest. And it fits.
Yay.
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December 10th, 2008 at 7:33 pm
Of course you’re allowed to feel lonely and have a down night. Moving totally sucks. Pyjamas, some wool, a good book, and maybe burying yourself deep down under the covers are nothing to ask forgiveness for. The good part is that not only do you have a vest that fits (and looks amazing, by the way), but soon it will be tomorrow, and mornings are always easier than night-times. *Hugs*
December 10th, 2008 at 7:42 pm
Here’s a little help on the Burrito trail:
The Big Fat Burrito (285 Augusta Ave) is two blocks from Lettuce Knit and serves the most amazing burritos ever very reasonably priced!
Burrito Boyz (218 Adelaide St W at Simcoe) has a legendary loyal following too.
And there’s more really good Mexican food, including excellent Burritos, at La Mexicana, with 3 locations all good (the central one is at 838 Yonge Street just a couple of blocks north of Bloor, near Yorkville).
P.S. WELCOME TO TORONTO!
December 10th, 2008 at 8:14 pm
Hey Honey, let me tell you from someone who has moved a lot–and most times without spouse first (or just me and kids), that it takes time to feel normal in a new place–especially once the omg this is so cool and new feeling wears off. I used to wonder why after a few months, I still felt kind of odd, now I realize that I don’t get into full swing in a new spot until about 6 months in, and knowing that, I relax in the process, and it’s much easier. Hang in there! xoxo
December 10th, 2008 at 8:33 pm
Grellow! yes! The inch and a half was totally worth it– it looks great.
December 10th, 2008 at 8:40 pm
Hey Amy, I agree with the above sentiments and will add one thing. I think bringing a kitty or two with you would likely help. They are great snugglers and listeners. They may also help make your new place feel a little more like home.
December 10th, 2008 at 8:58 pm
And we love seeing you at Stitch ‘n Bitch! Big hugs whenever you need them…
December 10th, 2008 at 10:32 pm
milt – just wanted to send you lots of love and tell you again how proud i am of you for making this move..and not only making the move, but for putting yourself out there to try new things, meet new people, get involved in new activities right away. we don’t adjust incredibly well, or incredibly fast (yes, i’m now speaking for both of us), but you are doing so so well. down times are allowed, feeling a bit out of place is expected. hang in there ames. we’ll talk tomorrow milt. love you. xoxoxox
December 10th, 2008 at 11:21 pm
I hear you.
Moving also sucks when you have to speak a different language and don’t understand it very well in the first days
I couldn’t imagine to move without my husband or he without me. I totally understand that you feel lonely and miss Sandra. Hope, it doesn’t take too long until she can move too.
Anne
December 11th, 2008 at 2:25 am
It looks beautiful!!!…..and I agree,,, moving kinda sucks:)
December 11th, 2008 at 5:04 am
Bring a kitty, they’re the best. I got homesick when I moved to a new neighborhood, I can only imagine what it’s like to move so far away from everything you love. Just know that all your readers are thinking about you and sending a little love your way.
December 11th, 2008 at 5:05 am
Two other burrito places are Mission Burrito in the food court across from the AGO and (I think it’s called) Fresh Burrito or Burrito Fresh anyway, it’s across the street (and up the stairs) from the ROM.
December 11th, 2008 at 6:11 am
Hey, I think how you are feeling is perfectly normal. I know both my husband and I felt very similar things to yourself when he moved out to Calgary for 8 months to do his Masters thesis there. You want to be able to share things, or explore the new with your loved one, the one who knows you best, the one who you share your private jokes with, the one you can be scared with.
), but everything you were feeling last night was valid, too.
I’m sure in the light of day you are feeling much better today (daytime is good for that
I hope Sandra and the kids can join you soon and that you enjoy your trip to see them this weekend!! Have a great flight!
December 11th, 2008 at 8:28 am
Woah! Thanks you guys!
December 11th, 2008 at 9:33 am
I hate moving! So I’m right there with you.
I love the vest. Looks great with the yellow, IMO.
December 11th, 2008 at 2:31 pm
I’m sure you will feel better in the morning! I think the vest looks simply smashing with the yellow shirt!
December 12th, 2008 at 6:49 am
Amy. Love the vest.